This or the other one?

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

so irritating that most of the shops are close for the past 3 days.

had rot and decayed at home.
played need for speed.
xbox blown

head to east coast.

rain.
sleep.

so i ever said about my old gd friend
i was disgusted by the new her
i saw her just now

she told

me
she quit her night job as a hostess
and
she's now; a waitress.

has a daughter.

single.

mother.

proud of her. she changed.

sometimes when i see her
i wish i could just say

i miss you lena.

Black Or white

Nelly Furtado

Cameron Diaz

Gucci

Victoria Beckham

am going to a A children ward.

their comment.

the staff are nasty

and

will pick on you.

uh huh

i shall know tomorrow.

i whispered to her

i'll meet you in paris.

and

don't be late...

So where did it all go wrong now?

i'll probably wait for you on the top of the moutain.

underneath the stars.

flashes of my life scene

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

recalling...

year 2001.

he called at 12.
he seem so calm
and i'm filled with anxiety.

he asked me out to catch a movie.

i look at myself in the mirror
to make sure everything is alright,
my hands are sweaty
my knees are weak.
and
it has been an hour
and
i am still deciding what to wear.

yesterday.

there's nothing I can do,
i'm no longer nervous
and that i am now quite relaxed.

Ratings
3.5 out of 5
Ghost Rider

if i have a knife now. i'll kill papa.

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

Put away that tissue
Get rid of that hurt
he's just a tiny issue
I'll show you what more the world is worth.

i love u mama.

- it's not easy.

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

i growed inside her
Little Heart Beating Strong
i was not An Accident
i was not A Mistake
i was the best Of surprises
two people could make.

this posting is affecting me emotionally.
i just felt her.
i do.
mama, i love you.

i am now in mother and child posting.
it was a big deal to me
as
i was scared of carrying babies.
when i first came to the ward.
i had several objectives.
getting my skills sign.

didn't i know that it was a whole new experience.
which that i won't forget.

i manage to have a day in the nursery yesterday
feeding babies.
changing diapers.
bath babies.

My long arms holding them
touching their soft skin
it was just so nice.

and

today

i went to the delivery suite.
i manage to see
2 normal
and
1 c.

the moment we stepped in at 7am
the sn instruct us to put dwn our bags and quickly go to suite 6.

we came in
and
saw the mummy was already prepared to push.
well, that mummy had epidural and so she push w/o pain.

she then gave birth to a healthy baby boy.

however,
while we were cleaning the baby.
she had difficulties pushing the placenta out
and
the mid wife
had her whole hand inside her vagina
to pull it out.
yikes.

anyway,
I didn't like the idea of an epidural,
as I wanted to be as active as possible during labour.
and
I also gotta promise myself that
I wouldn't swear and scream the delivery suite down.

and another thing.
i would love to do a water birth which is easily arranged at home.
and a large bath can be used.
well ppl,If you plan to give birth in a hospital you will have to find out what facilities are available and what their policies are regarding waterbirth.
Some hospital facilities have a waterbirth policy all ready in place.
and uh huh.
hell yea...
NUH do perform water birth yar.

One of the most common finding of research
is that many women find
that being submerged in water
enables them to relax
and they find the pain of labour lessens.

and after watching c.
i swear
it's so extremely ....
...
speechless okie.

anyway, a c is a
An incision (cut) is made in the mother's belly and uterus (womb) and then remove the baby.

uh huh.
it's so easily explained
but
i tell uuuu////
the procedures.

oh my god.
my legs just went wobbly.

it's more like tearing up a cow's meat laaa...


unforgettable.


dressed up to enter operating theater.

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he was wasted ya'all

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

went to st james power house to celebrate his 21st bdae.
power laaa...

he's turning twenty-one.
My truest, dearest syz1,

I've known him since sec. days,
We've had such happy times.
and
also messy times.
As lyrical as rhymes.

The 31st of jan was sheer delight.
And all in the world was right.

Even today, as grown ups,
Living apart that you're in camp cum prison,
We're still as close as ever,
Still very heart to heart.

What can I say about syz1?
Well, he just means it all.
Knowing him, being so close,
Makes life a living ball.

he's honest as the day is long,
I trust him in every way.
To make my every day.

he's funny, what a sense of humor,
And that's a special deed.
Invariably,he makes me laugh
When I'm in special need.

he really listens,
Lets me have my say.
Understands with empathy,
he's great in every way.

he loves me for whom I am,
Not for what I should be.
Thanks to syz1,
I'm everything I could be.

Consideration is his style,
he thinks of others first.
What would life be without syz1?
The answer's easy: The worst.

We'll keep on going moontanning, junking,
And laughing all the while.
With him around, that good, fun feeling
Is never out of style.

So syz1, I tell you,
With love that's bright as sun,
Have a wondrous, fun-filled birthday,
And a happy 21!




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here's the bdae boy drinking the waterfall.


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at the end of the night...
bdae boy still can be seen smilling.
thanks for the mess anyway syz1.
nxt time wanna vomit, give us warning first cannn....


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- friends we will be

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

we're friends now.
nothing expected more than just friends.

but the past.
were we together at the first place.

uh huh
the answer is no.

not at all.

that person is so irritating.
but i still love u.

ok.
now...
will you kiss me?


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thank u ella.
thanks for the extra extra laaa...
i look scary mann.

i am so happy laaa...
crazily excited
can't wait for this friday.

Love u B.

- just because ur gf is thin

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

hazmil said that

hm... wati
kau macam da...
then he grin

ya
ya
ya

i know right!

i put on weight

everybody said so.

- wati minah dandut. hah! riddiculous.

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

i was back at school for sim training on friday.
god! i miss school.


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waited and waited
that fahmi laa...
so late.
i miss wan getting sabo- ed.

here's a picture of the bdae boy and gf.

faz where u got the candles?
maybe i can buy for syz1 for his bdae nxt week.
he can blow and blow
and
BLOw!
hee...


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and guess what laa...
yesterday was my first time going to a dandut club laa...
maligai manis

ahah.
went there w/ widya and friends
just there to
drink
and
laugh
at those makcik and pakciks gelek gelek
and
bitch
at those hostess, minahs and mats there.
but was i
relieved that at least there was still rnB songs.

furthermore, i get to see ppl high on drugs.
i was shock to see a junior of mine there.
he was high
and for godness sake
he was crying laa like a kid.
i can't believe that boy was so innocent back then
fit; played for tahkraw.
and now..
drugs?

anyway, i pray that syz1 will get his post that he always wanted to be in; CNB.
alike fahmi, he did get that post
but
because blinded by love
always don't want to report to work
and
stayed at his gf place
now...
he's a receptionist.

one word
HaH!

but really laa...
i heard about the drugs;
Power
they are super cheap
and
it's like everywhere.

drugs do ruin ppl lives, ok.
i mean so do drinking alcohol.
and
i feel that why go to an extend of taking drugs.
silly.

i wanted to go to the ladies
and to my surprise
i saw nas.
she said
wati!
ni wati ker.
wati gi dandut!

i was embarrased laa.

ahah.
for me being at a dandut club the first time.
all i gotta say is
-hanyut-
i can't imagine if my mom or my makcik siank gelek gelek drinking smoking and being around wak wak miyang.
ahhh...
i wanna faint.


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tomorrow, another 6days work at the hospital
and
my last week at 55.

mother & child, next.
hmm..
carrying a baby.
i'm scared.
well, i shall practice carrying fifi my cat for a start.

enjoy your sunday people.

life is more than who we are

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

it was all pretty until the day she call me a ....


i'm sad.
i'm tired.
i'm bored.

i am dying.

i feel so weak.

anyways

it's a friday.
yay!

happy 6th yr ann; B.
from just friends -lovers -enemies -bestfriends

i just wanna tell you that
you're always be in my heart
eventhough
sometimes you can be a real pain in the ass.

anyways

wish i could also do a surprise party too for him.

can't wait for wan's surprise 21st bday party
organised by

drum roll

duh!
who else right

his girlfriend laa...

can't wait laa sweets...
hee

anyway
happy 21st bday wan!!!