self blame

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

see what stilnox and wine can do when its crushed and mixed?

its all your fault.
i wouldn't be taking it
if u didn't hurt me.

i would still be working.
i would still be with you.
i would still be coming home.; sober.

because of the pain you've caused me
I long for sleep,
but can it bring me rest?

i am recovering.

The depression, guilt, shame
This has made me even stronger in my recovery.

its too late to say sorry.

I now have to rebuild everything.