- smile abit baby

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

i got invited to an engangement ceremony laa...
congratulation to Am & who? siti eh... donnoe laa her name.

eventhough me & syz1 are together for almost 7yrs.
ppl are insane if they ever suggest for us to get engange.

well, for a reason.
syz1 find me a nuisance and i find him too a pain in the ass.
but
yeeaa... eventhough at times i feel like cutting his balls whenever he make me act like one lunatic crazy woman

i still do love him.

anyways

i'm still alive okey.
i got a LOT to share. but very limited. as i need to cut short and head home to sleep.

ok,i have started work and it's no more mon to fri. am a full-time which includes working on sat or sun. This has been a very, very long week for me so far...

am struggling to get into the habit of an earlier bedtime but it;s soo hard when i am so used to going out late at nights.

u see...
as a nurse, u gotta have enough sleep. infact on my off day. sometimes i feel that the day shld just be spent at home; sleeping instead of window shopping or sheesa-ing.

especially in my ward.
it's super riddiculous ok
working 8hrs running around.
Not even a sec. to go toilet or even a sip of h20.

Not that my day job is all bad, in fact I think I can finally start talking about my career now.
i just feel that i need time to improve.

and when i get my pay.
i bloody need to spent a pretty penny on myself by buying a surgical embolic stockings.
THOSE veins are super ugly.

scary that it looks it's gonna burst soon.

ok...
smile abit baby.

nytess.

- tired

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

Believe me babe, i am sure there are many times in life when ppl feel disappointed w/ things in life. Believe me, it hurts because, I disappointed myself thinking u were a true friend.
i despise u now. truly.

i despise her

but i' wanna forget about the whole situation of she

manipulating me & several ppl in her life.

i felt that there is no point hating her

because

as time passes i will forget and learn to forgive.

Even though she had CREATEd a super ridiculous story about me.

syz1 thought she was a joke. He didn't believe her lies.

However, i learn something in return of this tragic beautiful tragedy.

i'll sacrifice.

To become a new person, to change things.

When i learn to forgive and forget, i have a reason to enjoy living.

- Liar

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

u knew he was one of my boyfriend's close friend &
u went to some cheap hotel in geylang and slept with him.
how dare u told him not to tell me & syz1.
don't u feel dumb?
that he told us ur "secret"
u told him that u don't have a boyfriend.
fact; ur engage.
like hello!
so keep your shitty ass lies away.
your lies sicken me and the others.
and your face disgusts me.
So things are going to be different between you and I
not because u slept with a friend of ours.
but because i know everything now babe.

u came to us and said that ur just friends w/ that gerl
but i just got to know from her that u told her
u love her
she love u too
and she fuck u too.
babe, if u think ur intelligent.
think.
u eva said that ur gonna get rid of her because ur are 1000% sure u wanna marry ur fiancee.
u did ignore her for some time
and now
that ur fiancee is in overseas
u find her for a companion.
u scrap her money and ask her to top up ur prepaid.
and guess wat.
i am so fucking glad that she realise it now that u are a joke...

and

ur cheap.

babe, am not gonna reveal more shits bout u.
each tear you cried to me and her was all a LIE…
I don't have empathy or sympathy for someone like u who is so pathetic.

- a visit to HTA

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

- a (good) friday. Right....

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

How did my friday went? Lets see...
i started my morning by waking up at 4.30am
ON A PUBLIC HOLIDAY.
how fantastic is that laaa...
ok so, most of my days this week was spent on orientations.. i always end up being the presenter but i wont complain laaa..am happy after the 4 days, we all have smilly side up badge.

continue smilling wati...

and after that long naggy course....
confidence. attentiveness. respect. empathy. towards my patient. is my piority.
work is tiring this 2 weeks. but uh huh... all that ama, apek, peng, chak yoh, piku chilai, ... i survived taw.

anyways tomorrow is my day off. would love to head zouk tonight.

syz1 had received his posting... guess. guess. court officer laaa. and which his division covers town area. the shitty part is that he cant enter any entertaiment centre around town area; which include, zouk.

l a m e.

but serious serious...
what i really really wanna do today is spent with one person. After spending lotsa time w/ friends... i wanna go out w/ syz1 today. i Miss him more than my salsa chesse. it felt So long that i didn't catch things up w/ him.
till then.

wish me all the best.

my off day is so fucking precious.

anyways... i so wanna share THIS.

well, i didn't went to prom. ya ya.

i am a nerd.

so?

but i so wanna know who ( a group of Malay girls ) they were dancing.... and turn off their neighbours.

why.

VEry bad body odour.

hee... it was funny tho listening to this things when i met up again w/ my schoolmates last week.

Okay,this is typed out now, so I'm going to shower. I wanna go out. got 36hrs to spent.