- so far so good

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

I have been busy these past three days as Monday, Tuesday & Wednesday was spent in the the ward.
FYI, It's a general medical ward and it's really really tiring.
I heard from people about the ward that it has political issues on almost everything.
Oh well, i wouldn't wanna get influence on bad shits bout the people there.
i'll build my own culture by minding my own business and just smile.
but work was fun actually.
i hate mornings.
because, i have to drag my lazy ass off to work.
because to me it's a sure big difference between waking up at 4.30am & waking up at 9.30am.
anyways, i am so blissful that jalilah is in the same ward with me
... haa...
both of us masih feeling feeling that we are still student.
i cant believe that
ok... my ward in total there are almost 20 NYP's and 10 NP students.
one of the staff call out student
i actually turn by head unconsciously laaa...

Anyway, my yesterday after my pm shift it was spent with my gfs & my new friend miranti at mc Donald's. How nice is it that they do " meet ups ". appreciate that girls... sitting down and having conversations, over friescokecoffee and cigarettes.

i'm gonna eat now. Hope mum left some food in the fridge. guess i'm gonna stay at home today. the itch to go out is there. nana called earlier and ask me along to Chinatown to get her tickets. BUT i am so lazy. i just wanna hang my legs and watch tv all day.
nana is going Canada soon. i wish i have $ now.i'll probably wait for another 2 years to go there. so gonna miss her laa.

- a balance of all

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

- done deal.

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

like what!
i am starting work on monday.

i came down to hr at 9am to sign the contract. it was total happiness; really. but i still don't know which ward am i gonna work in. like hello. am clueless...


trying out my very the gelebos scrub suit was something that i never knew the time has come. it's not made of soft satin and it looks like a pajamas. On the scrub suit u'll see... animals prints. i wish nuh will change their scrub suit soon. like seriously. it's super whoper kental okey...

oh well... i can't wait to party my ass off at zouk tomorrow w/ my attachment gfs. and by the way gf s will be sleeping over my place tonight. yeah... another blanket party. probably the last one before nana fly off to canada and also before i start work. anyways, there will be no manicure section because i broke my nails on last saturday when i played bowling. so the bingit. so probably just doll up nana tonight. i am gonna cut her hair and dye her hair. give her bangs too... nahhh.. i am a bad ass cutter okey. i remembered dewie told me to cut her fringe and i cut it super short that she whines the whole day :p anyway i am so super whoper excited. i can't wait for tonight and tomorrow...

i'll take a nap for now. it;s super humid. maybe, i'll take a bath first.

OHHHH... i so gonna blog this.
dad congrats me
exact sms...
well done ya but must work hard and b successful in life.
i dont wanna get all emo now
but
yea...
i love u dad.
and
i love mama the most.

good bye.

- trying my best

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

what the fcuk. my bro has a blog. that is super kental eh zul. we hardly talk at home and now we can COMMUNICATE
like going online and read each other blog.
and zul... dont write rubbish, for instance. best sex position. it's super riddiculous okey.

anyways...
i have an autograph date tomorrow. ahaha. signing the bloody contract laaa...super the leceh okay.

and
i'm trying my very best not to eat meat.
seafood is not a problem. i could skip them because i do not enjoy eating them.
i told syz1 and he's quite supportive... like uh huh... he goes like...
siak ah B... nak jadi kambing makan rumput ehk.
he made me laugh
but at the end of the day am super serious. all my salad usually have chicken and i probably must learn to pretend that the tomatoes are chicken. i know i am cruel to my body
but we'll just see how is the outcome. well, its quite healthy to go off the meat eg. hamburgers.
uh huh.. lacking protein? rubbish... the facts is that westerner have plenty of disease caused by too much proteins.i meant vegetarian. not a vegan. it's 2 different things. vegan is out of the world. i'll be better off being a cow then... two, discipline... it makes what i'm thinking to eat by giving myself restrictions.

alrighties.
good night.
i am a happy girl.
that's all that matters now.

Give it to me

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

- Get Your Own


goodness sake.
hr called me when i was still sleeping.
god, i was so bLUR!

i remembered i was so frustrated w/ the interview which i felt it didn't went well because it lasted for 5mins. like hello 5 mins. or maybe less... i donnoe.
pathetic kannn... i was just saying to them i won't get the job. and ha ha ha ha. I got the job! damm. . . i am super happy laa... and the best thing is to start work on monday. as in next monday. thatissothecibai. anyways... there goes my holiday. i got only today, (which i plan to go zouk) thurs, (which i plan to go dbl0) i'll probably cancel it and REST. i'll just party on Friday night w/ my girlfriends and BF. then sat and sun will be a resting day again. anyway what a REAL GOOD TIMING to get a passport photo when EEEEeee... i've been having bad hair dayss... like NO! not when i have to take a permanent pic w/ my bangs. goodness... i wish there's a thing call baja for hair which they can really make hair grow super fast.okey watever. i need to shower. i need to plan my time wisely. i need to organise things. i need to thaw the salad. i need to go take picture. i need to jog at 5. i need to catch heroes and i need to sleep at 10pm.

- in my head now...

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

is it going is it going is it going is it going?
I don't know what you're looking for
[Nelly]
I'm the type of girl that'll look you dead in the eye (eye)
I'm real as they come if you don't know why im fly-y-y-y-y
seen ya try to switch it up but girl you ain't got to
I'm the wonderwoman let me go get my ropes
I'm a supermodel and mummy, si mummy
amnesty international got bankrupt (im on top, on lock)
you love my ass and my abs and the video called promiscuousmy style is miticulous-s-s-s-s
[chorus]
if you see us in the club we'll be acting real nice
if you see us on the floor you'll be watchin all night
we ain't here to hurt nobody
so give it to me give it to me give it to me
wanna see you work your body
so give it to me give it to me give it to me
[Timbaland]
when timbo is in the party everbody put up their hands
I get a half a mill for my beats you get a couple grand-d-d-d-d
never gonna see the day that I ain't got the upper hand
I'm respected from californ.i.a. way down to japan
I'm a real producer and you just the piano many
our song gonna top the charts, I heard em, I'm not a fan-n-n-n-n
(like said before...you know what they say here)....
talkin greasy im the one that gave them they chance
somebody need to tell em they can't do it like I can
[chorus]
if you see us in the club we'll be acting real nice
if you see us on the floor you'll be watchin all night
we ain't here to hurt nobodyso give it to me give it to me give it to me
wanna see you work your bodyso give it to me give it to me give it to me
[JT]
(i simply love this verse)
Could you speak up and stop the mumbling
I don't think you're getting clear.
Sitting on the top it's hard to hear you from way up here.
I saw you tryin to act cute on tv just let me clear the air.
We missed you on the charts last week
Damn that's right, you wasn't there.
If sexy never left, then why's everybody on my shi it it?
Don't hate on me just because you didn't come up with it.
So if you see us in the club go on and walk the other way
Cuz our run will never be over; not at least until we say
[chorus]

- pressure sore

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

i sat in the saloon for almost 6 hours

we all needed a slap of barrier cream too...
it's super ridiculous
let alone the ones seating for the rebonding and dyeing of their hair should empty their bladder first
even though it was a long day in the saloon; i had super fun.
i just see the whole environment that i was in outer space; where's there cool gadget
like the ones use for curling... it's super scary
it looks as if u could be electrocuted by it.

i just don't know how to describe that alien looking thingy
and there was of cause;this radiation satellite looking thingy which act as a warmer

i just needed to entertain myself with all this silly imaginations of mine

ET?dark vedda?star wars princess?wednesday adam?pirate of the Caribbean?


interview went well.
i wanna believe that.

i met cha in the morn to have breakfast at coffee beans. as usual i had my norm tea and waffles. i was super nervous. SO nervous till i need to b.o. x1. reached the h.r. and saw familiar faces. they all told their experiences in the hot seat with the adon and sis. listening to it made me nervous but i was confident tho...one by one finished their interview. u can see smiling faces. some; irritated because the sis was in a hurry and also because of OBESITY.hee... afasha told us AH does not accept obese ppl and therefore he came down to nuh in the end he got smack by the sis. but yea... it was more of advises that the sis gave to us. and then it came to my turn.

sis: smile.

me: gd morn sis. nice to meet u.

sis: here come. sit down. uh huh... 55 , 58

it seems like everybody wants to be in that ward.

me: oh yes sis. the ward is a good learning environment to be in.

sis: what if i put u in other ward

me: actually... am ok with it lah.

me again: LaH!? (in shock)

sis: raised eyebrow and look at me.

me: grin and smile.

like hell yea... singlish. bad ass... but anyways. it was short and simple.and of course until they call me;i shall then rot at home. hee... nah. whole lot of plans coming up real soon...

well, break starts from today.

i feel like a total bum.
and am super bored.

My 1st day.
jogging.
just- turn- vegetarian.
quit smoking.
it's not that am worried.
I'll get it all done.
It will be done.

happy TUesday.

my kind of me

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

fckng fat flab + fatty food = fery fappy

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

i am so fucking frustrated with blogspot!!!
anyways.
me, ella and hui hui spent the afternoon downtown yesterday.
we ate at billy b.



breakfast w/ the girls before our morning shift.
only for these few days
time will allow us to talk, eat and laugh together.
tell me
when will we be able to do this again after we graduate.


- Get Your Own


thank u baby for that fantastic saturday.
very fulling indeed.

waffles and sausage for breakfast at cb.
nasi grg sambal at sinaran for lunch and sundaes.
nasi grg daging merah at al azhar for dinner.
nasi grg ayam bakar at geylang lorong 6 for supper.

result:
very happy.
and
gained 4kg.

i always have good weekends
and
people around me knows
and
ensure they don't dial my no.
and hold their urge and wait for monday.
but only
sha and yot don't read my lips.
they keep pestering me.
oh u both are such a bother.


- Get Your Own

super duper happy weekend girl

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

ma mood was okey.
happy
however
a mixed of bocapness.

she triggered my mood
she is so childish to answer me in that way.
like really laa.
eeeEE.
bingit lor.
Oh well.
i'll be one childish brat then.
pls grow up laa u kaki spocen.

I'm finding my way back to sanity again.

today was spent in the ward.
tired.
pissed.
why?
because i hate that ward.
definitely
it's not even a good learning environment.

i always believe that w/ good top management.
the follower will follow their good examples.

like this specific renal ward i was attached.
the sister is so uper nice.
educated.
smart.
humble.
but yet stern and shows real professionalism.

the ssn, sn,an,hca,housekeeper.
they are also terrific and pleasant to work with.

arent we called nurses?
the world sees nurses as friendly, dedicated, giving, polite people around.
and why do students experience episods that some of the ward staff are nasty.

like hell yeah.

today was still okey.
I'm so glad that we are left w/ only 5 days in that ward.

anyway it felt soo long that i didn't glued my eyes on the tv screen.
i managed to catch super sweet 16.
me and nenek went like Ee..
stop it.
so spoilt.

but seriously if dad is rich
like really really really laaa.

i dreamed of building a space
a paradise for animals especially for cats.

a place where they can have comfy velvet sofas to sleep on.
a large playground where's there's green grasses for them to run and also big shady trees for them to snooze.
wher good tuna are served.
and
weekly grooming.

research shows that animals are one of the "pain" reliever.
children or ill people can come to the cat paradise.
it's therapy; i call.

it does work for me.
no matter how mad ppl make me...
whenever fifi meows
and
manja manja

i'll place him on my lap
gentle strokes
on their soft bodies
slowly
it takes my problem away...
not totally
but
it does calmed me down.

well, my eyes are going to shut.
no more replacement
so that means i can rot and die till sunday.

happy weekend.

i have freaking 8 more days left

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

i almost had a breakdown when i read her msg long time ago.
it wore me out.


he was right.
he had calmed me down and has made me feel better.
he knows I had tried the best I could...
i should have just listen to him.
he analyse girl's behaviour; i noticed.
he knows my friends better than i do.
therefore i could always have him as my bestfriend.

i'm just glad.
i went through what she went through too...
and
she went through what i went through three...

This is what i called friendships versus influence.

i didn;t manage to update regularly as 64 was so hectic.
i just wanna hang myself
or maybe shoot myself.
i swear it'll be a curse if i ever get a job in 64.
oh my god
the busiest
and
freaking
unorganised
and
cranky
patients
you could find there.

patient w/ uraemia.hypoglycemia.
what do u think?
cranky.
mood swings.
madness.

it's much more painful than imh.
i just do not have that Patience and passion after my experience in 64.

I wonder about my life.
I lead a small life .
well...
valuable but small.

i do wanna take up my degree in aust.
save it.
i'll probably work in a hospital for maybe a min. of 4 yrs
am happy as an AN.
am happy w/ $1 300.

tomorrow i have to be out of bed at 05 00 in the morning.
school is sucha bitch.
why cant school be a walking distance from home.
damm.

well, it's bedtime.
i really do need eight or more hours of beauty sleep a night.

Never i wanna admit
but i miss her.
saw her in her car.
i had a feeling one day we'll meet
and
we'll
exchange smiles.

hopefully since i can have a good sleep tonight.
i'll hope to dream of 4 numbers.

ahaa.

ok,
done,
my bed.
my sleep.
I'm sure will do me some good.

My last week will be a busy .
However, that's another entry.

love
wa-T