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these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

Shortly thereafter, he informed me that he's done basically nothing to arrange a 21st birthday party for me, even though he'd led me to believe he had.


But still. I thought today was supposed to be about me.
Tomorrow I'll tell you all about our trip.

it's almost 2pm.
i wanna shower. eat. go to work.

miss syz1 tho.

i heard vesak day that he n fwens has great plans.
sucks to work tho...
am night somemore.

my temberang weekend

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

today i woke up ,
showered, put on my clothes and grabbed my pass and went to work.

it has been quite a long time since i work in the morning.

its sucha ass to wake up so early.

all these while, it has always been afternoon shift or nyte for me.
so, i didn't complain much.

anyway, today,
i have one new staff working w/ me
and her name is moon.

sister was confident to let her tag w/ me.

hello??
i barely work for 2 months and i am her preceptor??!!

kidding me laaa...
i haven't even get my checklist sei.

oh wells,
since the day jalilah resigned,
sister has taken new staffs
and surprise surprise....

oh my i was so surprised
because
my nyp prcp's students came back
and they are now
working as a health care assistant.

these guys are working temporary tho
coz' they're waiting for ns.

temporary is still good enough.

we are so short of staff nowadays.
like for instance,
on sunday the ward total staff strength was only 3 staff nurse and no JUNior at all.
tell me.
how bad is that?
i didn't wanna take mc that day.
but i was sick for the entire week.
i was down w. fever,flu,cough and migraines
besides i was just so tired
and honestly,
i was in a holiday mood laa.
pay day was on friday and all i wanna do is just spent time and money.

saturday, time was spent w/ syz1 and friends. we just simply " chill ' " around town.

i can't believe that
they all, of all places wanted to sit down at forum.

i saw a couple of familiar faces.
best lar kann. they all heading to hard rock.

we actually wanted to head zouk but because lil' miss wati had to work the next day.
but still
it doesn't make any differences tho.
we still went home at 3am.

i was sO lazy and
at 7am
syz1 accompanied me to the dr.
after i've inform the ward. i went home and took some more rest.

i woke up in the evening and i was darn bored so being born a bother
syz1, ali and fahmi accompanied me to town to shop.

after hours spending at town,
the guys were tired
and three of them are NS guys some more which means they gotta work on monday.
being mean that it was my off day on monday.
i didn't wanna go home so i drag them to arab st.

sheesha n turkish coffee aper lagy... carik pasal laa kann. now i'm having sorethroat. hee...

ok back to arab st.

we sat at our usual place and then guess who i saw. dewie laa kann...
oh wells, she and fiancee- to- be hermie has a shop.

she told me to go in the shop but yg drg drg tak kuasa nak masuk, so we lepak until she closed the shop but before she left, she told me to singgah one day.

and

uh huh i did yesterday.

monday was suppose to go simei. goffy expected me to come but i was simply so lazy to travel to simei.

and also that afternoon, i was suppose to meet my babes. but alamak so many halangan.
cha had something on last min...
su... i think her hp got stolen and hui hui's reception was bad.

and

so i asked syz1, azzy and my bro to town again.

i bought for azul a new pair of shoes.
his DC shoe was bad laa.
so koyak rabak. my bro; a biker. does stunts. explains y.

then we went to arab st and head to mosi to have our super pedas maggi grg.

i tell u
me and bro had a bad stomachache after that.

after mosi, kita singgah kedai dewie.
first sight. we saw hermie. we went in. he went out.
i browse around.
ok laa... but very limited things.
i wanted to buy the dress. cost almost $80. pretty but the dress material was poor. i knew if i wear a few times; the rubber will sretch and i won't be able to fit it.

anyways, the shop was nice and cosy.

syz1 loved the bike but wasn't interested w/ the things that they're selling.
azzy was standing one side because she's not into beach type stuff.
my bro. i don't know what he was doing.
i tried on a few dress tubes and THe dress
but i didn't buy any.
but still, i will come and see any new stuffs.
i wish they can have more dress for me to choose tho.

however, i think that it's nice to know and see someone you know having a shop.
and in fact, i'm proud of her. i think she did a great job setting up a business.

anyways,
later i am doing night.

wednesday is gonna be a busy night and

wohoo... am doing nights together w/ cha.

till i write again.

gd night.

- missing

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

i miss marc, kev, nisya and kye soooo much.

if madigans was still open,
there u go, we can still meet yaaa...

anyway, it feels so good to sleep the whole day.
it's my off day today.
I laid around in bed in my p.j's, curled up with my cat for almost 20 hours.
i was cruel that i didn't let fifi went out of my room to eat.
and the best thing was fifi did his business at the corner of my room.
haiz.

i wanted to sleep some more but syz1 called me and wanted to meet me.
he's just a pussycat.
sooo manja nowadays.

we both are so tired of working.

can't wait for the getaway this july...


Umbrella ft Jay-Z
By Rihanna


[Jay-Z]
Ahuh Ahuh (Yea Rihanna)
Ahuh Ahuh (Good girl gone bad)
Ahuh Ahuh (Take three... Action)
Ahuh Ahuh

No clouds in my storms
Let it rain, I hydroplane in the bank
Coming down with the Dow Jones
When the clouds come we gone, we Rocafella
She fly higher than weather
And G5�s are better, You know me,
an anticipation, for precipitation. Stacked chips for the rainy day
Jay, Rain Man is back with little Ms. Sunshine
Rihanna where you at?

[Rihanna]
You have my heart
And we'll never be worlds apart
May be in magazines
But you'll still be my star
Baby cause in the dark
You can't see shiny cars
And that's when you need me there
With you I'll always share
Because

[Chorus]
When there�s sunshine, we�ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

These fancy things, will never come in between
You're part of my entity, here for Infinity
When the war has took it's part
When the world has dealt it's cards
If the hand is hard, together we'll mend your heart
Because

[Chorus]
When there�s sunshine, we�ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

You can run into my arms
It's okay don't be alarmed
Come into me
There's no distance in between our love
So go on and let the rain pour
I'll be all you need and more
Because

[Chorus]
When there�s sunshine, we�ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh)
Under my umbrella
(Ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

It's raining
Ooh baby it's raining
Baby come into me
Come into me
It's raining
Oh baby it's raining

A. O. R.

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

The more i work in a geri ward, the more slower, confuse i feel...
and the best thing is that i sound more and more like an a-mah nowadays.

anyways my legs .. my back are all aching.
my mom is so funny laaa.
she actually scream because she thought i bought a pantyhose for merely $70.
but uh huh
i told her it's not an ordinary pantyhose or just a cheap thin pantyhose. ok.
it does wonders too ya...
and i bought crocs too eventhough it's not even allowed while working but
hantam jer laa. the stupid pucinno or whatever shoes laa... it's killing me sei...

i have to admit i'm facing some pressure now because the ward is very heavy. almost all the pt are bed bound or twice my size or they are demented.
student time of course i love demented pt. why?
they are cute and all day u layankan jer laa org org tua berbual nonsense.
yar... eventho it can be entertaining but i tell you they make u do double job. cleaning their mess or chasing them.. gosh. so tiring.

i know things will work out in the end. They have to but i'm just tired. i need an escape. i need to be rescued.

I've got to vent a bit. it about this particular staff in the ward.
she;s just rude how she approach you, how she talk... bloody rude and she sucks my blood.
ppl like her need not be respected.
so what if u r a very "experienced" nurse.
one day if i know my job well, i wouldn't be as arrogant like you.

Don't claim you're experience
i don't call myself an expert on anything.
i know i can always learn more than I know.
The real experts i know, are the ones that are humble and just do the work.

period.
haiz. . . . .

but i'm glad i wasn't the only person on earth that have problems w/ her. even the student complaint to me that she'll be m.i.a. and the time she appears she'll demand the students to do this and that.
see...
talk alot. no actions done.

ok ok ok enough wati...

can't wait for graduation day after all. miss my school mates especially all the pantats laaa...

rahim & harith called me last week. and they were the fallen angles laa... she called me at the right time when i was so stress up w/ work.

common' who donnoe these 2 badots. talk alot of nonsense only.

anyway harith
happy advance bdae.
i can't attend ur bdae party.
ya i repeat harith has a bdae party so the boi kentalok laaaa....
heee...
because i have to work.
i love my patients, ok.

till i write again... which i have no clue. when.
remember
dont quit when the night is darkest for its just a while 'till dawn.
don't quit when the hill is steep for your goal is almost high,
Don't quit for you're not a failure until you fail to try.