- I kNOe ryte??

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

i can't wait to bump into her again.
i love the way how she talks to me.

though she acts like a guy,
she's beautiful in many ways.

i see you now,

i will see you later.

but the truth is that we'll never be together.


getting ready to go work.
such an ass.

not forgetting, i have a coffee date with phylis today.

i didn't know that she's crazy.
like totally
mood swing bitch.

- my sunday morning w/ syz1

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

as we get older,
we get slower and lazy
and we stop being so active and fun and energetic.
gah.
wrong.

i wanted to go bt timah nature reserve but it's too muddy.
we went to bb nature park instead for a start.


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half the top


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cliMbing up...


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giving up


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looking at his reflection
vain.

- her fav. colour is red.

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

red is blood.

we need no introduction.

she is slim and firm and need no lipo suction.

while i am a cute lil' bug.
and i desperately need a hug from her.

- i loved her. she love emily blunt.

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

one named beautiful with a beautiful face.
she is somewhat strange.
but she will never change.
we're both in a quite a happy mess tho.


Mona is a working class Yorkshire girl
who lives with her brother Phil
in what was a pub but has been turned into a Christian center by Phil,
who found the Lord in prison.

up on the Yorkshire moors to escape the evangelists who have overrun her home,
Mona meets Tamsin.

Tamsin is languishing in a massive ivy clad house,
suspended from boarding school for being “a bad influence on people.”

Mona is captivated by this beautiful and sophisticated girl
(she quotes Nietzsche, she plays the cello, she “adores” Edith Piaf),

and their relationship quickly develops from casual acquaintance,
to sexual attraction,
to obsessive love,
played out over a long hot summer when they have nothing to do and a lot of time to do it in.

Mona and Tamsin love each other,
the scenes involving the young women have a crystalline, hallucinatory feel.

the atmosphere between Mona and Tamsin crackles like summer lightning, elemental but dangerous.
and the relationship between Phil, who wants his sister to find an unquestioning happiness in Jesus,
and
Mona, who wants her old brother back even if he was a violent criminal,
is almost painful.

Watching My Summer of Love,
it’s difficult to shake off the persistent feeling that everything is going to end in tears,
if not worse.

the love between the two girls quickly turns obsessive, leading to violence when others try to keep them apart.

- my wednesday pm shift

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

i’ve just been really tired.

boyfriend surprised me again.
he was out from camp again in the afternoon

but only till 10.30pm today.

went to eat my chezzz

and meet ella for a while.

miz her lots.

anyway,
i’m very happy with him at the moment.

never in my life would I have expected this.
in a week time.
me & bb 6th yrs ann...

work is work,

nyp's on my nerves
but i'll try to ignore them tho.

psychotic pt bed 27
thinking of her makes me wanna drop and die.

she's placed somewhere where she can see the food trolley.
the food trolley just came sey
can't she wait for the food to be heated up.
padan muka tadi makan taugeh.
haaaa.

anyways,
she pressed the call bell many a times.

demanding to get her the food...

but ya la. cant blame. she's a psychosis pt.

and i’m kind of annoyed.

see..
i gave her soft damp cottons to wipe her ass after she use the commode to box1.

and

she scream at me

she say she wants a dry tissue paper instead.

like EE yuuu...

but i’m kind of glad.
i tolerated.

you know what?
i could totally blog about someone right now, but I just cannot bring myself to it. I’m too tired.

good nyte.

- Something's Missing

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

networking connections.

whenever i talk about old times with bb.
i can't help it.

i miss her.
alot.


HE was suppose to be in camp on monday night.

10.45pm lights off.
and
i was late.
11.00pm. usual bed time stories.

i rushed home.

on my way back home from work

HE surprised me. he had taken a leave.

he was under my void deck.

the only bad thing was i wasn't alone.
i was w/ that girl.

- genesis of obsessive compulsion disorder for my generation

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

a new beginning for him & his gf.

went to meet him.

went mustafa
bought
purple perfumed petals
crystal glass purple flower
ferraro's
frame
card
and
went to print pix of him & gorgeous gf.


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love?
love is lust . . .

i commented.

or issit

kesenangan. . .

born a romeo?

hmm..
but some part of him
i didn't see
until that very day.

view from her place. view of clarke quay.



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awaiting for her to come home from shooting
he decorated her bed.


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we ordered mc
and
drank.

went to meet the rest.

it rained.

we separated from them.

but
the weather didn't stop us from
me & bb moon tanning

we waited
and
waited
till sunrise. time: 7;38am.



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van.sha.mark.nana
accompanied
us too.

hangover.toxicated.

we jump into the sea.
they did a double D size sand boobs for me.
shall upload the pics soon.

to dearest. with love.

anyway
wishing dearest
happy 20th birthday.

kak wani's wedding prep.

yayness.
so
so
looking forward to her beautiful day.

and the fact that bb said
i am gaining weight.

i agreed.

and
so
i'll shall
trim off my extra baby fats laaa
but still
maintain my 45kg.

and bb has plan
a whole lot of activities for us

and nxt week
we're going cycling plus tracking

burned sat. lesser time to spent with him then.

fcuk la...
i just remembered.
i am replacing my mc on this saturday.
cibaikannninakannn...

anyways
attachment went pretty well in 55 and my posting at a&e
i love the pace & speed in a&e.

i hope somebody please shake me off
from further decision to work at st.andrews.
very soon
i have to make up my mind
pursue studies to a deg. at aust.
or
just fucking work laa...

how often am i gonna post nowadays

depends on what's going on with me at the moment.
i'm busy, like now.

i'm sorry. am attached.

The hardest thing, though, was telling her.
I am straight.
Another thing that had to be done, no matter how difficult.
she didn’t take it well, as expected.


i really wish that days of our lives would just stick to tv.

let me have a quiet, boring life.

- Offence description

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

:: Nature of offence ::


-being sincere-