baaa...

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

This is supposed to be simple.
it's supposed to be easy.
I'm supposed to no longer care.
I'm supposed not to think about you

Why you're no longer here; and why I can't see you, too.

I'm not supposed to remember
All those times you fought with mom
Or the time you hit me when i was younger.
When my life seemed to exploded like a bomb.

I’m supposed to move on
I'm not supposed to regret the past
Supposed to be happy
And not remember the rest.

I'm supposed to grow up.
Without any memory of this.
Without spending time worrying.
And wondering about everything I’ll miss.
I'm supposed be able to move on and live my life like you were never there.

You were supposed to love me.
Not make me live in vein
What ever happened daddy?
Why did you leave?
I don't get it anymore.

And I know I should probably stop trying
But I know I can't
When a part of me is dying
I need to see you again daddy
And get everything straight
Like why you hit me
And to tell you it’s just too late
And I know that even though I'm not supposed to care
Or even worry why you're not here
But I can't help it.

But you left me to fend all alone.
both of them are still young and schooling. They need u too.

I thought that I still needed you
But now that feeling has blown
I don’t need you anymore.
I don’t need you lies.
And your silly little games.
I don’t need anymore tears to shed from my eyes
You may not need me now.
But it’s just too late.
You left me and made me cry.

have you ever wonder when it’s your turn with the same fate?
But don’t worry.
Because deep down inside
I still need you.
And that feeling just can’t hide.
But I hope you can understand; why I can’t wait anymore.
It’s not that I don’t love you
Because trust me, that feeling will always soar
But I have to move on.
I have to get a better life
One without you in it
To hurt me like some knife
And I’ll miss you baa...

Even thought if you said over and over again that you're much better off this way.

Even though you've hurt us.
In my heart you will always stay.

good bye baa.