changing

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

is it possible to wait for 6 years for a person you love and wanted to be with ?

anyways,
it's the 25th... super broke. the reason of being jobless for almost a month.
But, i am so glad i quit my job at nuh.
i'm currently working in an Aesthetic medical group,
its a real dramatic change of jobscope.

i shall talk more about the new job soon
but
i just wanna let some of the people here know that i miss my pantats aLot!!!

girls, read up. an earlier sms i get from juliet...

a wise woman once said that to be happy

1. it is impossible to find a man who helps at home,
who cooks a decent meal,from time to time clean up and has a job.

2.it is impossible to find a man who can make U laugh.

3.it is impossible to find a man who can trust and who doesnt lie to U.

4.it is impossible to find a man who is GD in bed and who likes to be with U.

5.it is VERY important that these 4 men don't know each other.


Juls, read up.
HA HA HA. very funny. i know u don't have anything better to do.
Please puasa ok so that we can happily break fast together.

to cHa
happy love life. very complicated but yaa... never ending.

to Sue
i SMS u but u didn't replY!!!!!

to arabsundzzz
don cha wish ur girlfriend was hot like me.

k love u people... i'm now at work. The place close at 2pm and will open again at 7pm.
i have bloody 5 hours to rest lor.

till i write again.
love;
nana

self blame

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

see what stilnox and wine can do when its crushed and mixed?

its all your fault.
i wouldn't be taking it
if u didn't hurt me.

i would still be working.
i would still be with you.
i would still be coming home.; sober.

because of the pain you've caused me
I long for sleep,
but can it bring me rest?

i am recovering.

The depression, guilt, shame
This has made me even stronger in my recovery.

its too late to say sorry.

I now have to rebuild everything.

u noe i noe

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

Do you know how am i doing or what i am going thru now?
or

SIMPLE.
what do i feel towards you?

Go ahead and make me sad
it’s okay if it makes you happy

Rip my heart out and step on it
it’s okay if it makes you happy






i am lost
but
i know one day ... i'll find my way.
excuse me.
i don't need ur comments.

fly away...


i am now an addict.
addicted to sleeping pills that is.


but

i am fine tho. just tired.

i've been going out almost every day.

i freaking scare my mom when i told her that i spent $ 500 on just food, ciggarette and cab fares for 3 days.

but

it's ok.
i had fun.
(some of the pics taken from this week)




that is all that matters now. right.


well, i have the power to make my life happy or sad
Right now I am happy
Happy because I am changing.
i won't say that i've changed
but i'm a changing person.

i dont need to be kind. who am i impressing?

in the final analysis.
ppl.
it's never about my life with u.
fucking hell.

in the final analysis
its between me and god.

love;
nana

rather a disturbing post
but
i wanna let u guys know something about me
when i was a lil' kid
when my parents called my full name

i fainted

therefore;
they call me
nana

now i know

good nyte.