- yesterday's dream

these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay.

somebody managed to make me smile

- love u baby.
our crazy day yesterday.

Thursday, June 28, 2007 - Life is short these are my words that i've never said before i think i'm doing okay. i got lost. and i've returned today. the experience scares me to death. i was lost in my very own sweet shelter. i miss how it was ; how many years ago. my brothers was so happy and gay so full of love and fun then, dad was still wasn't a jerk. mom was still nagging. at my bed side. there's a warm,loving,tender,caring family potrait. my family; they were there filling my needs now. i'm lost. i'm losing my breath. nothing i said he'll understand. mama is feeling lonely, crazily lonely her need for a conversation with him. i miss the sound of her music. nevertheless, bro's are growing teens. when i look upon the potrait not long ago they were all tiny and mini look how fast they're growing. for my dearest brother; to you both; do not fear. i will protect and care for u both. just remember dad at the end of ur life. it's not ur child ur wife ur car ur money that u take with u it's ur amalan. i wish life was like the family from still standing. anyways, training at mdis was fun. ended at 4pm. way early right girls. that HARLOOO woman was there but yet we didn't heard any of that harLoo's so irritating laa that woman. so we headed to ps lame shopping mall ever. west mall lagy best taw. bought for my little sunshine friend su a small prezzie and then we actually wanted to head to fish and co but at the same time wait for ain to reach town so we head to town first and we saw JULiet... ahaaa that girl is crazy that day she was with the poor bf. but we still yet to see the rich bf soon. well it came to a point that me mals and su are supper hungry so we decided to eat at cahaya... after dinner i was thinking to pierce my eyebrow but i dont know i was scared. so after that we still shop and then our butt landed infront of the stairs of liat towers. we had chardonney and flavoured ciders . su ate her melted chocolate cake. eventho it was abit deform but she doesn't mind. sorry buffay. well it sucks tho that we set our own curfew. BECAUSE during that point we had only 6hrs to sleep and then to work. i thinks mals took mc the next day. ain had some mandarin course in sch in the morn while cha met her bf juliet went off with the poor bf su head home straight and i met beautiful. she say marriage is bull the name wife and husband is just a status. intelligently my beautiful crystal. confused is what i've been, for months now, maybe years... for my dearest syz1 good night my angel close yours eyes tight dream of me loving you in the nite. dream together so that we can fly high tonight. i need prozac.